broken

2:07 PM Posted by Roo

I had really hoped my next post would be full of lots of positive goodness. But as far as my injuries are concerned I have nothing positive to report. I canceled last week's Death by Derrick session and have had to put any future ones on hold pending results of my x-rays and physical therapy. Yes, you read it right. X-rays AND physical therapy. Starting tomorrow. The doctor still isn't sure what I did although he's guessing the sacroiliac strain is a result of training for the 1/2 marathon. That being said, he doesn't think I'm going to be well enough physically to actually participate in the 1/2 marathon in a few short weeks. I, on the other hand, am hoping and praying that a week or two of physical therapy will get me well enough to at least walk it. Only time will tell.

As I type this I am feeling...broken, disappointed, overwhelmed and sad. I have been training for this and had my heart set on it. When it went from partially running to walking only I accepted that. Now to physically NOT be able to even walk it? Devastating. Some people may not get why this is so important to me; all I can say is it is.

I keep telling myself that at least I exceeded my fundraising goal of $2,900 and the monies I raised will go towards finding a cure for blood cancers but raising the money was only part of the journey for me. Actually going the full 13.1 miles was the other part and a very important part.

I refuse to let this get me down. Yes, I am sad. But I will get past this. I will go to therapy, I will do what I need to do to get well again and I will heal. It's just getting to the stage where I am well again that will prove difficult for me. I'm impatient and I want to get better yesterday.

4 comments:

  1. Elizabeth said...

    I'm so sorry. I know how frustrating it is to want to run and not be physically able to do it. I missed a 5k that I planned on for months because I messed up my patellar tendon. You'll find another way or another race.

  2. Brooke said...

    all hope isn't lost. you could still get to go. will keep my fingers crossed for you. trust me, i know exactly how you feel and why you feel it (even if i couldn't articulated it to the hubs this afternoon)

  3. ~Mendie~ said...

    i'm sending you the biggest hug in the world right now...maybe you can see if they can apply your monies to another race when you are feeling better!

  4. imadramamama said...

    Please, PLEASE still go! Do as much as you can and then stick your tongue out at the sweeper van man.

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