a bucket list

5:53 PM Posted by Roo

So I've decided I need a bucket list. Off the top of my head, must-do's for that list include:

A visit to Ireland.

A tattoo. I know what I want. I just have to be brave enough to get it.

A cruise.

Vegas, baby!

Learn to ski. Even if it's on the bunny slopes with my kids.

Ride a zip line.

There is more but I'm in bed thinking about it (or I was when I wrote this on my phone and Blogpress refused to post it) and just wanted to write a quick post while it was fresh in my mind. (Yay for local drafts on my phone so I didn't have to try and actually re-write this.)

Tell me. What's on YOUR bucket list - completed or not. I might get a few ideas! Yes I very well may copy you. Imitation IS the sincerest form of flattery, you know. {wink}

recipe: crock pot santa fe chicken

3:00 AM Posted by Roo

This? Is delicious served over brown rice and super easy to throw together the night before. Turn your slow cooker on in the morning and voila!

Original recipe can be found here: Gina's Skinny Recipes | Skinnytaste.com (LOVE her recipes!)

Crock Pot Santa Fe Chicken
Servings: 8
Size: 1 cup
Points Plus: 4
Calories: 190, Fat 1.5 g, Fiber 5.6 g, Carbs 23.1 g, Protein 21 g

24 oz (1.5 pounds) chicken breast
14.5 oz can diced tomatoes with mild green chilies
15 oz can black beans
8 oz frozen corn
2 tbsp dried cilantro (I didn't have fresh)
14.5 oz fat-free chicken broth
1/2 cup scallions, chopped
1 tsp garlic powder
1 tsp onion powder
1 tsp cumin
1 tsp cayenne pepper (to taste)
salt to taste

Combine chicken broth, beans, corn, tomatoes, cilantro, scallions, garlic powder, onion powder, cumin, cayenne pepper and salt in the crock pot. Season chicken breast with salt and lay on top. Cook on low for 10 hours or on high for 6 hours. Half hour before serving, remove chicken and shred. Return chicken to slow cooker and stir in. Adjust salt and seasoning. Serve over rice (extra Points).

i feel like the energizer bunny

8:14 PM Posted by Roo

It's after 11:00 PM and I have finally sat down for the first time today. No, really. Other than driving and a quick chiro appointment I haven't stopped. I feel like the Energizer bunny - the one that keeps going and going and going - except I think my batteries are dying.

Did I tell you guys I'm moving? I can't remember. Anyway, we're moving. Again. Husband took a job that requires relocation. Our house officially lists tomorrow and I just now finished "staging" it for pictures. My next step is tackling the basement and sorting donate versus trash versus keep. I don't think I want a basement in my next house because all I ever do with them is use them as storage for things I should just get rid of. Please tell me I'm not the only one that does this... ::looks around::

The most exciting news of the day? I'm a Social Sister over at Shrinking Jeans! I am so stinkin' thrilled. I love these gals (and guys!) so. much. I know there are so many new faces over there too. I promise to get my booty in gear and mosey on over to the 'hood and start connecting with you ASAP! The best part? I get to do it with Trish B! Yay!

...and I guess I'm going to hit publish and shut down the PC for now because SOMEONE (my 3 year old) is still awake. This is what happens when she naps. Oh well, at least it's summer vacation and we have nowhere we have to be first thing in the morning.


no ankles, you will not win

6:53 PM Posted by Roo

It's been 5 days since I've laced up my shoes and headed out to exercise. Ankle pain has been my nemesis. I guess they're just weak and they'd rather be propped up than moving. Well I have a surprise for them. They are not winning this game. I went to the running store and now have 2 ankle wraps. We ARE going to redo C25K W1D3 tomorrow whether they like it or not. Jerks.

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it's late and i can't sleep

9:00 PM Posted by Roo

My mind won't shut off. I have a general peace about moving but at the same time I don't. I think logically I'm good. Emotionally? Not really.

I spent the evening with my sister and her family. I watched our kids playing their hearts out on a beautiful summer evening. I love how much they love each other. I hate separating them again. I know we need to do what's right for our family of 4. But inside it's killing me.

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i am in control

10:05 AM Posted by Roo

***I decided not to do an in-depth Fitbloggin recap but instead share what has happened with me since that amazing weekend. I learned so much, saw old friends and met new ones. The memories are forever etched into my mind. And yes, even THAT memory April. (AHEM)(the things I do for my friends). I will definitely go back next year. If I walked away this year learning so much in such a short amount of time I can't imagine what I'll come back with next time.***

For the first time in several years I feel in control which is ironic given the fact that everything around me feels out of control (upcoming move out of state for husband's new job being the main culprit).

I attended Fitbloggin almost 2 weeks ago (has it really been that long??? ) and was truly at an all time low with my depression and an all time high with my weight (almost anyway - within 10 pounds of my heaviest). It was HARD to go knowing that I wasn't playing the game. I'd start and stop and start and stop and start and stop again. I joined Weight Watchers a billion times. But in my head I never fully committed. I wanted to but didn't. Depression and circumstances have played a huge part in that and breaking the cycle is tough. I kept joining challenges at Shrinking Jeans and instead of being motivated I sunk deeper into the depression as I kept seeing the numbers on the scale go up. Granted I knew I wasn't doing what I needed to do to be successful but that didn't ease the guilt, sadness or the negative talk.

One theme that was prevalent throughout the conference was BE YOURSELF or BE AUTHENTIC. I was doing neither. Sure, I was me when I was chatting it up with someone on Twitter but I couldn't be real here - in this space - on my blog. Why not? It's my space. People can choose to read or not. But I never felt like I could convey it right - my feelings, where I was, etc. Instead I chose to stop talking/writing and internalize everything. Dumb, I know, especially when I am surrounded by so many awesome friends here in the blogosphere. Today the not sharing and not being authentic stops. I am me and I am awesome. I don't need to convince anyone else of this. So I will do my best to write more and keep it real. Really real. (You've been warned.)

I also chose to attend a session on intuitive eating with Katie Heddleston, Christie Inge and Karen Anderson (who swings a mean kettlebell, ya'll). I have been intrigued with intuitive eating for quite some time but as a girl who needs to lose a good bit of weight I wondered how it could actually work for me. I mean, don't I need to count Points, track calories, etc.? Maybe. But for me I realized that I need to get my head on straight first. Until I can love me for me and stop the self-sabotage nothing is going to work. So I came out of the session with the decision to stop the crazy cycle of gain, gain, lose, gain, gain, lose and just focus on not eating for comfort, eating slower, stopping when I'm full (no need to clean the frikkin plate) and enjoying what I'm eating (not just stuffing my face). When I weigh myself (I'm not ditching the scale entirely. Yet.) I will not let it define me. And in almost 2 weeks I've lost weight guys (and not just a half pound). I'm not posting the numbers because it doesn't matter at this point. But the scale did confirm that I am making better choices and I will use it only as a guide for now and not call myself names or beat myself up if the number on the scale isn't where I think it should be.

Guess what I'm else I'm doing? Making time for me. I am so overwhelmed with being a mom and life in general (as evidenced by last week's hospitalization for anxiety attacks...ugh) that I haven't been taking care of myself. Yes, I have the head knowledge that I SHOULD take care of me but I don't. That changed this weekend. I restarted the Couch-to-5K program and am doing Pilates on alternate nights. I am exercising at night after the kids go to bed because my husband is home to listen for the kids and if I'm outside it's a lot cooler (seeing as it's in the 90's during the day here).

For the first time in several years I am finally in control. I know that it won't always be perfect but I am trying. And I will keep picking myself up and starting again when life gets tough.

So thank you, Fitbloggin, you helped me to find me again! And I will be eternally grateful.