my heart is broken

8:40 PM Posted by Roo

I knew better than to trust you because you've hurt me before. Yet I still loved you because you are my family. I tried to be the better person. I tried so hard to believe that you loved me, too.

You hug me. You tell me you love me. But I know that you don't. You can't. You just cannot love someone and say such harsh and hateful things when they're not listening.

You burned me before. I let you back in. I shouldn't have but I did. Without fully trusting you I allowed myself to let my guard down and what do you do? You criticize my parenting, my housekeeping, my weight and more hurtful than anything else? You criticize my children. The two little people that bring me the most joy in my life. The innocent children that love you. That get excited to see you. Because they think you love them too. And you don't.

I'd love to tell you to grow up, get off your high horse and get a life; but if I do there are children that will suffer - mine and yours. If you find out I know you may very well find out how I know and then you will take it out on them.

I want to tell you how disappointed and angry I am right now. But for the sake of the children caught in the cross-fire I won't. But only for them. Not for you. Because as far as I'm concerned there is no relationship left and there never will be a way to mend this. You've gone too far this time and you can't fix it.

5 comments:

  1. Casey@LoveWhatIs said...

    I'm so sorry. My heart hurts for you right now.

  2. Misty said...

    I don't know why she has to act that way. I'm sorry that you have to put up with it. She really needs to grow up and maybe look at herself I think you are an awesome person and she needs to get a life! Love ya!

  3. *Lissa* said...

    I don't know the specifics, but I am pretty sure I know what you are talking about. I'm so sorry that they are hurting you once again. :( As you know, I've been in somewhat of a similar position, and our lives truly changed for the better once we confronted them and put our feet down. xoxo

  4. Bari said...

    I'm so sorry that a certain someone is causing so much grief and heartache. ((hugs))

  5. Brooke said...

    *hugs* you know where to find me if you need to talk one on one. people suck sometimes. and its hard when you can let them know how badly they suck because someone you love, loves them too.

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